Heart’s on Fire

Like a pot boiling in the depths of my belly
I feel heavy, yet light
Floating in mid-air
I feel like I’m flying
But ready to fall at any moment
My heart’s on fire

Not fighting for a cause
No matter the cost
Not standing on a hill, no matter the wind
Not fighting for something greater than myself
Or standing firm on a solid rock,
Unmoved

But that uncomfortable feeling,
That feeling that tells you something is not okay,
Like acid burns on a full stomach, heartburn, 
It hurts
When the flames leap high and I can't put my finger on the cause
So I stand up and take a pause,
Reminisce on what I did, 
Wondering what I could have done differently
Like a tree planted in sand

I feel weak, ready to be carried by the wind
I cry; I cry because I am afraid of tomorrow
What I did and what I am about to
Was it right, or am I a fool
To think I can stand for what I believe in
And everything be okay

When I look back
The mistakes of my past come to haunt me
When I look ahead
The consequences of my actions stare at me
When I look to my sides I wonder
What will others think of me 
When I look down I ask myself,
Will it ever be okay
So there is only one place left to look
That is why I look up
Whenever, my heart’s on fire